TEARS OF JOY

There goes the alarm from husband's mobile phone...it's Sunday (April 10, 2016) five in the morning and this is my second time to go to church to attend a sunday mass since my last miracle in October last year. Don't get me wrong, i do hear mass every sunday on television at six in the morning and i tell you the only difference is the absence of the Holy Eucharist physically. For although it is a TV mass i absolutely know that i am in the presence of God for i can feel HIM inside of me...from the deepest recesses of my perfect heart! So off we go to the nearest church -my husband, my son andmy daughter. I cannot understand why just on our way to church ,travelling smoothly without any distraction, my tears fell.

We were now inside the church and blessing ...there is still one space for me on the last row where i will be sitting comfortably for i can feel the air coming from the outside, only husband remain standing at the back. Come the song Hosanna In The Highest...i really missed this moment of group singing of praises ...so with all my might from the bottom of my heart...i sing Hosanna in the Highest!  Huh? Here she is again...my tears...it keeps falling on my face then right into my pastel blouse! Oh my, oh my, my blouse is getting terribly wet...Strenghten me My Lord! I have to compose myself...otherwise i will be crying profusely and may not contain myself...then what? I may not come to the end of the holy mass. I'll miss everything...no,no,no - i can do this! Calmness in me regain!

Now we are to sing the song Our Heavenly Father taught us...

OUR FATHER WHO ART IN HEAVEN
HOLY BE YOUR NAME
YOUR KINGDOM COME
YOU WILL BE DONE ON EARTH AS IN HEAVEN

GIVE US TODAY
OUR DAILY BREAD
AND FORGIVE US OUR SINS
AS WE FORGIVE THOSE
WHO SIN AGAINST US

DO NOT BRING US TO THE TEST
BUT DELIVER US FROM EVIL
AMEN

As i am on the second stanza ...HOLY BE YOUR NAME, i burst into tears again. This time i reach for my tissue on my pocket and start to wipe away my tears.

Lord, i am not worthy to receive you but only say the word and my soul shall be healed...
I fall in line together with husband to receive the holy communion...this is the best thing that ever happened to me this time! Body of Christ...AMEN! As i kneel to thank HIM for this sacred moment,i started crying again. This time...i let it flow...this tears are my healing! This tears are my miracle...this tears are my prayer...i am offering this tears to you my Lord!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

FEELS LIKE HEAVEN!

I almost didn't sleep well last night.  I was so Excited...so  nervous...so happy and so honored that I am among those thousands of blessed people who are coming to Kerygma Conference to meet our Awesome and Loving GOD. In front of MOA SMX are long  lines of participants who are on their way to experience the glory of GOD. Really...this may sound unnatural but I am in tears while getting my way inside of the Conference room.  Inside, as Bro. Bo keeps on repeating "people first before thing" i've come to realize that many times during those moments in my life wherein  I need to decide on what to do, I failed to put people first before things. And as he prayed over for all of us who are there while we are shoulder up to shoulder  with each other - I burst into tears! Oh my GOD this is heaven...this is heaven on earth! This is a great feeling! This is awesome! This is undescribable! This is superb! This is incredible! No words can describe what my heart can feel...oh my GOD ,you're the best!

As each class transpired - the holy mass was explained, does GOD answer our prayers and everything about the wonder of life with GOD...I've come to realize that there is so much love in the world. There is so much love rooted in everyone's heart. For GOD is love! And we are made in the likeness of GOD. And I believe that if we have love and we give love to each one...this whole world will be full of love.

When the conference adjourned, and everybody are on their way out...all are with a smile on their faces. You know this feeling that while walking GOD is with each one of us...walking hand in hand with each one of us...chatting (on my mind) with each one of us...and would you believe that in my sleep - I have the best smile ever! Yes, I did because GOD is with me! I told you this is heaven!!!

November 22, 2014 Saturday 11pm

I'M A WINNER!!!

Thank you so much LORD! This is a blessing from above. Thank you Kerygma Conference! I've been wanting to attend this for so long...thank you sa lahat ng nag like, sa lahat ng naghakot ng likes...sa aking loving husband, my daughter Nikita, my son Nikon, kay Sharie, Marra, Chabee, Mira, Rich and my dearest sister Kett Austria. Thank you so much!GOD bless us all! GOD bless you with your mission KCon! http://kerygmaconference.com/2014/

This is the contest I joined.

And this is the winning piece i wrote!!!

SIMBA

"faster, faster we're late again..." while approaching the church entrance I can almost hear the priest with his homily. " huh, so we're really late again." Hearing mass is a process. Sa misa ay pagdadaanan mo pagpupuri, pagsisisi, pag aalay at pagtanggap. Kaya nga paglabas mo ng simbahan ay mararamdaman mo ang kaligayahan, kalinisan at busilak na puso, pagmamahal at katahimikan ng isip.  But this one is kakaiba... nahihiya ba ako kay Lord? Naiinis ba ako sa sarili ko because we're late again, bakit ganito ang pakiramdam? Please, please, please... kalma...  focus... nagmimisa... huwag maiinis... "Hay...success!" "Peace be with you" "Ama Namin" "Panginoon, hindi ako karapat dapat na magpatuloy sa Iyo, ngunit sa isang salita mo lamang ay gagaling na ako" And yes, gagaling ako... because the moment I declared these words... I WAS HEALED! So on my way to the altar to receive Him...I am already at peace..." Body of Christ" and I said "AMEN"

"ALL BY MYSELF?"

"Mama, punta tayo All About Baking, may mga bibilhin po ako." My daughter Niki is into her own home-baking business. May mga order siya so she has to buy ingredients na kulang pa. When we arrived at All About Baking, my husband was already there. As you know, his Papa and I are all out support to her baking business. Maybe that's what parents are... more often than not, we are more excited than Niki when she has orders. Kami ang makulit, kami ang laging nagpapaalala, si husband laging binibisita ang oven... nakakatuwa pero to be honest kami talaga ni husband ang kabado. But of course every bake na gawa niya is sooooo delicious!!! Ayan na, tapos na siya mamili... she is now approaching the cashier. Ooops, I have to go to the restroom ... I have to pee...  so off I go... When I returned she is already carrying all her pinamili... "mama, why did you leave me when I am about to pay my items? I can't even find Papa to ask for help... wahhh why did you do that?" Ako kasi ang taga bayad niya sa mga binibili nya for she was just starting. "What happenned then?"  "P2,500.00 lahat ang napamili ko... tumaas yata ang blood pressure ko... sumakit ulo ko... parang lalagnatin yata ako. "hahaha" I've been longing to do this... to let her do it by herself... I keep telling her that she must learn how to budget her money. When I do the paying, tendency is she just keeps on getting whatever she wants. She overlooks to consider on what item she can save more. Now she learned her lesson. Before going to All About Baking, she makes a list of what she needs and the good thing is she tries to canvass and compare prices now. Thank God, my trip to the restroom had taught her an important lesson needed for her baking business. Now she can do buying her needs all by herself... (you can visit her site at www.pastriesbynikita.tk)